Dreamer.

Hey guys haven’t been on here in a while, just a brief update me and Bj finally got through our toughest time yet in our relationship.  He moved here with me in LakeCharles, but now we are stuck.  He was willing to go to school with me here this semester, but we both need jobs in order to pay for school, and so far jobs aren’t looking up to nice for us right about now.  So my mom wants us to move to San Antonio with her and my dad, but that mean we would still have no job there either and wouldn’t be in school we would just be lounging around.  I really don’t know what i want to do with my future I hate that i’m saying this and I’m 20 years old. I really wish I knew what I wanted to do but I just don’t.  So I need to make up my mind soon because if we can’t find over 1,000 dollars me and him will have no other choice but to move to San Antonio because we will be homeless here lol.  I need help.

06/13/2012

I am soo emotional right now it’s not even funny and I can’t even depend on one person to be there for me, guess I really am in this along, sigh

*crying my eyes out rite now*

05.07.12 So today I found out some jobs that are hiring and I’m hoping that I can get on at one.  So I’m feeling kind of lost right now, I think me and him are really done just because of the fact he is acting like he is happy we are not together.  It’s amazing how I can be sitting here upset how he talked to me and how he act like he doesn’t care.  This week he was supposed to be coming to my apartment to live with me, now I can’t get anywhere because I have no money and he was supposed to be my prince charming and be there for me and not talk to me stupid, and not treat me like crap.  He believes he is really being nice to me but he doesn’t realize he doesn’t treat me nice anymore, I felt like i was loosing him before this breakup.  But I guess I should just let it go, it’s clear he has already. Oh well MOVING ON I GUESS :(