OMG

Is it really possible to feel this crushed on the inside. You take my presence for granted and now it’s gone. I always cared I guess it wasn’t enough, hopefully I will be ok bye tomorrow, today was just a rotten day and I’m feeling like crap, sad, mad, anxious, and wanting to just talk to him and tell him I love him and don’t want it to be over, but I know I CAN’T DO THAT!!! not after what happened again„WORDS DO HURT, but I can’t keep letting them crush me down like this.

-05.06.12 *CRYING WHILE TYPING*

it was dark in my room HA.

it was dark in my room HA.

Ha, look at me today.

Ha, look at me today.

FRUSTRATED!!

So it looks like I will be in LOUISIANA a little longer than expected.  After the news I just heard I refuse to go to TEXAS right now!! My job search will be uped a little more, and so will my money.  Wishing this dude wasn’t acting like an asshole we could have worked on a lot of stuff together but hey it is what it is, no matter how bad I would like to talk to him and say lets talk, discuss this, make up, IT WONT HAPPEN„sighh oh well. ITs time for me to get up and be an adult again, JOB, MONEY, APARTMENT ARE my next goals before the summer is out, then I will get back in school.

FED UP.

05/06/12. I’m so sick of the bullshit from just about everybody.  Your probably glad your done with me that’s ok though, but I know one thing for sure I’m not running behind your ass no more.  So your getting what you wanted hope you have a good life!!  It’s amazing how quickly things change from one day to another, guess that’s the reality of life in your famous words “IT IS WHAT IT IS”, so i guess it is what it is, i’m tired of being thrown to the side like i don’t matter, and OFFICIALLY done with being told “bye then fuck”, no more, no way, no how.  I’m glad i made you happy by you getting rid of me, but i know one thing for sure, you wont see me again!! That’s how you want it FINE WITH ME THEN, i’m not begging nobody to be with me so WHATEVER

-HAVING A FURIOUS DAY UGHH.